Day 15 – A Journey of My Spiritual Experiences (Listen while you read)
It had a sense of rightness when I accepted the fact that I was different. I had always known this; however, this was the beginning of the realisation that I was different in so many ways. I had always felt the ‘odd one out’. I generally differed in my opinions to others and wondered, for many years, if there was indeed something wrong with me.
I hadn’t realised, as a child, that others couldn’t ‘see’ as I saw. I didn’t appreciate that they couldn’t see that he or she was ‘not of good intention’.
I can remember wondering why they thought that Miss X was a lovely person when, in fact, her ulterior motive was to be cruel and hateful. I couldn’t understand why they thought Mr. X was wicked when, in fact, he was assertive and truthful. No, this wasn’t known to me until, after a number of years, I began to realise that others didn’t ‘see’ as I saw.
During my time in AA I began to know this again. This time though, I was clear headed, older, and more capable of objective thinking; something that had been a difficulty for me for so many years.
Yes, the meditative process was certainly the beginning of a new way of thinking and living. I wanted to share it, and share it I did.
There were so many experiences during this phase of my life that brought me such pleasure and excitement. My daughter also experienced this phase personally. She was there at every meditation group listening and learning and, I believe, loving every moment.
One evening she advised me that she knew someone whose mother was having a great deal of trouble with her mind. She asked if she could be brought along to see if there was anything that could be done to help her. Naturally, I agreed.
There she sat, at the next meeting, very anxious and most definitely troubled. I had asked my guidance (at the time known to me as Soul Friend) if indeed I could help this woman and was given the understanding that I could. He also informed me that she had, within her, a spirit of a relative who had passed some time before, and this spirit was causing her a good deal of distress.
We were given to attune to the woman. I began to shake quite involuntarily and a man’s voice spoke to me; he was the spirit spoken of.
We conversed for some time and I realised that he had committed suicide and he was afraid that his actions would prove a difficulty for him in regard to a reunion with his friends and relatives.
I gently persuaded him that this indeed was not the case, and that his friends and relatives were waiting for him to take their hands. After a good amount of time there was success. He left the woman, and I saw him (in my mind) walk toward his loved ones and move off gently with them.
The woman was obviously shocked by the revelations that were forthcoming. She had known who the spirit was (who had been living through her). She was also shocked because she didn’t want anyone to know that her relative had taken his life. However, we comforted her, and she left a much calmer woman.
The reason that I have used this incident as an example is to show how powerful an illusion it is that we are all experiencing. There are hundreds of incidences such as this that I could write about, and many could verify the stories with their own personal experiences. And yet, some 12 years later, The Collective Consciousness (the name by which I now know my guidance, The All) gave to me the understanding of this giant illusionary show that we are all participating within. Once this information was given I no longer saw spirit, or talked to spirit (apart from The Collective Consciousness) because, as they advised, we are a consciousness only. The many belief structures that we are able to enjoy are just parts of the fantasy that we are currently enjoying.
Carolyn Page – ABC of Spirit Talk