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Here we are again, dearest, at the keyboard, indeed. And what shall we speak about? Oh yes; perhaps we could speak about the new life you will be living. Shall we?
Yes, please do.
Right, dearest, we shall. The new life – this sounds as if there are two lives. Does it not? One before the latest realisation; and one after. And this is true, dearest. The life that lies before you bears little resemblance to that which was before. This is as the result of many changes for you dearest. Yes?
Yes, this is indeed the case.
And what was before? Before the current realisations, your life, dearest, was one of duty, responsibility and honour. However, dearest, these were not duty, responsibility and honouring yourself. No, dearest. These were favours you bestowed upon all and sundry; leaving little appreciation for yourself. Would this be a true statement?
Yes it would. I certainly put everyone before myself. I may not have thought that, at the time; though, it is true. I was living life for others.
Yes indeed, dearest; this we know was true for you. And now?
Now I am finding myself doing things but without the thought of someone else on my mind. I’m now realising that there was very little time, if any, when I didn’t have someone else’s needs or desires on my mind.
Once again, dearest. And now?
I am relaxed. I’m doing things with myself in mind. That is; I’m beginning to appreciate that ‘I’ have a life, and I want to live it. I want now to do those things that I’ve denied myself. I don’t want the desires of others to be those things I do. I would have to say; I’m beginning to see my life as something to be enjoyed and not to be endured; as I have often thought.
It is exciting, dearest?
Yes, it is somewhat exciting. Only yesterday I mentioned to my daughter, Veronica, that I felt like a young schoolgirl about to leave and enter the wider world. I felt excited, a little nervous and a lot naive about many things; one of those things being the unfamiliar feeling of placing myself first.
And are you enjoying yourself?
Yes; though I do know that Rome wasn’t built in a day. There is still ‘work’ to be done with my partner of the Negative. We, as a team, are changing for the better; however, I believe this will take a little time for it to become the norm for us.
In what sense, dearest?
There is far less meanness and control on his part. However, occasionally he criticises or complains.
And how do you handle this?
You advised for me to use humour, though, you did say that there were varying ways to circumvent these energies. One of the ways you mentioned was to go to the ‘dream’ I now know is to become my future. This most certainly has the effect of transporting me to a place all my own, so to speak. I am quite surprised to find I am totally encapsulated in a very sweet energy; one that seems to obliterate the sense of being in company.
Being in company, dearest?
Yes. When I’ve returned, so to speak, from my reverie I realise I have not been cognisant of being with my partner for that period of time. The mood has changed, during my so-called absence, and it is as if the meanness hadn’t occurred.
You have not been affected, dearest?
Yes, that is precisely the effect.
Good, dearest; this is good. We shall leave this here for now.
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