Animals reflect our behaviour. The animals that we feel a closeness to, encounter often, engage with, attract, and so on; have a role to play in that moment of our lives. They offer an understanding to us of the ‘play’ that is our current experience, and give insight into the intricacies of our lives. Following is the understanding for the troubled Caterpillar.
Caterpillar (General) (Listen while you read)
Anger. Trouble. Don’t mess with me. (Inner anger and disturbances, which need evaluation and releasing.)
(What; just go away. As if I haven’t enough on my mind. Trouble, trouble, trouble. That’s all I get… Trouble, trouble, trouble…….. Just Go Away….………..
God, won’t they just leave me alone for a day. Not even a day; it’s just trouble, trouble, trouble…… God, I’m sick of it…………. (A long pause with a very deep sigh.)
I’m just so overloaded. … … … (Another deep sigh.)
God; I’m just so overloaded. (Another deep sigh.)
Boy oh boy (whilst sighing) just can’t take this anymore……. (Another deep sigh.)
It’s just all way too much (whilst sighing).
If this continues on I don’t think I’ll make it…. I just don’t think I’ll make it…. Wow… (Another deep sigh.) Wow……. Just need some peace….. Just a little peace……… Just need to know that this will all be over with some day…. Need to know that life isn’t meant to be this haaaarrrrrrrrrrddddddddd……. (Another deep sigh.) Glory, glory, glory; will it ever end…….?
Well, my dear, dear friends…… I am aware of the depths to which we can reach….. And this reflection has certainly gone as deep as I would ever like to go….. I have been there personally; many years ago.
I remember trying to end my life a few times; life was ‘that’ hard; indeed it was. I didn’t succeed, as you know). However, I really wanted to go away from all the darkness; all the inner turmoil; all the hatred, poverty, lies, bad behaviour.
Oh yes, my friends; I know this feeling all too well; I’m sad to say. However, I have a feeling that, just as did happen to me; there is a brighter day coming… we just have to hold on to see……….)
Please don’t hesitate to contact one of the many organisations whose purpose is to assist you with ‘any’ mental anguish you may be suffering. Two such organisations are listed below. We care about you and want you to seek the help that will start you on your way to recovery.
Beyond Blue Within Australia can be contacted by calling 1300 22 4636 .
Suicide Hotlines Us & International.. A Depression & Mental Health Initiative where you can pose a question online. 1800 784 2433 (more numbers are available on site).
© Carolyn Page – ABC of Spirit Talk